Sometimes I question whether this shit matters Putting substance into something in the world So used to instant gratification I found this instrumental on my phone while on vacation Eve sent it a year ago or so I probably heard it before, but slept on it, you know Shit don't always connect as soon as you press play At times you gotta step away, do some living Let time provide a new prescription, giving true a vision I dibble dabble in a few religions My homie constantly telling me about Quran, putting me on I read a few pages and recognize the wisdom in it But I ain't got the discipline for sticking with it Now I'm on the way to London, got a show for seven digits I'm wondering just when did I become my biggest critic I wanna be my biggest fan, like how I was when didn't nobody know my jam Today my son said dad let go my hand Reminded me one day he's gonna be his own man And my job is to make sure he's equipped I gotta make sure he not no bitch, cause niggas bound to try him If I said I was the toughest growing up I would be lying I had a fear of getting punched while everybody eyeing Add to that a constant fear of dying By gunshot wound or other violent type of endings I kept a tough demeanor on the surface but was mostly just pretending Luckily my bluff was working way more often than not But sometimes a nigga pulled my card, tryna expose me for a fraud And with my reputation at stake I was scuffling just to save face Couple wins, couple losses, some broken up too quick to call it My last scrap was with Puff Daddy, who would have thought it I bought that nigga album in seventh grade And played it so much, you would have thought my favorite rapper was Puff Back then I ain't no shit, now I know too much Ignorance is bliss, and innocence is just ignorance Before it's introduced, the currency eclipsed A bad lick's to have a nigga serving three to six, shit Soldiers on, marching on, on, hoping to see home If I die before I see your smile just one more time Soldiers on, I could be one to lean on Time won't right the wrongs, won't be long How can we grow any closer? Something inside of me's tryna crawl out to the surface Something is suddenly smothering, stopping me, stubbornly getting its way Drowning out, I've got a reason to believe that I'll turn out just fine Soldiers on Lord please guide our steps, watch us, cover us So that every move we make is in alignment with your will, your purpose Please fill us with your spirit, keep us forever in the present For presence makes us strong as fathers, teach us how to lead, show us how to love For presence makes us strong as fathers, teach us how to lead, show us how to love Thanks for watching!