I can let go of the flower,
now my power has returned
I can look back at the past,
now I see what I have learned
Drama buster at my age,
but the child won't behave
She wants to scream and cry and rage,
and who am I to dig her grave?
The teenage years I never lived,
the innocence of high school kids
Young romance and endless nights of carefree joy and pure delight
Didn't grow up in a normal world and now I'm just an adult girl
Now I'm too old to die young,
but at least I had some fun
Spent my twenties on the run,
dreaming of suicide in love
Think I'm stuck somewhere between
childhood and va-va-voom Always cycling in between
existential dread and doom
Messy numb razors and knives,
missed arteries and blacked out nights Kittens,
mittens,
plushy toys,
frozen hearts and sullen boys
Broke me off the teenage world and now I'm just an adult girl
I don't even know what's real,
I just know I wanna be free
All the things I lost in love,
swept them underneath the rug
Like the child I wait and hope you might repair the things you broke