Yeah
I need a long time
Yeah
I don't laugh hard enough for my friends show me a mean gotta
face it.
I got reputation of being mean.
I'm not too worried to fall in that category
or too arrogant to share my side of the story
I'm not too proud to admit when I took a loss
stuck my hands in dirt got up and I dust it off
skills had to hold mine damn I need a long time
say time is money I got no interest a long time
you ever met a homebody that hate to be alone
really bad at texting but hate to talk on the phone
cold shoulder don't you crown me attachment
bring anxiety I need to separate at the moment
I feel you tied to me and my trip and I need to keep a
distance to inspire you and exercise my freedom to leave
The moment I'm tied to you
Tires roll but my passenger seat empty annoyed
when you hit me at times when I'm not busy
How can I explain my silence and disrespect?
How can I explain my distance and just neglect?
Music is the outlet where I pin my regrets.
I unplug when I'm done,
but shocked that I can't connect
Mmm
Yeah
I wanted to take a 22 to shoot myself round 22
Deep connection couldn't fake it if I wanted to I can speak to
all of you but I can't speak to one of you for gum was at my
head for real but I had the guts to pull it I don't know cuz I
didn't have no money for the bullets back and forth scenarios my
mind began to wonder pulling trigger takes them follow through
that's my biggest problem reading books
attending seminars and hopes to change
the feeling alternative to dying to
escape the pains of living David and
Goliath raised my level or it's over but
it's hard to toss this pebble with this
boulder on my shoulder anti-social I want
to be alone accustomed to the prison and
the mental being home that Gucci belt
won't hold you up when you feel them
knees buckle you hit that floor and pray
to God and it feel like he don't love you
I need a long time I
don't even own my own mind not for a long time
I need a
long time long time a long time my heart
beating fast will it slow down slow down
slow down