There's no way out of the angry crowd without stepping on some toes They'll scream your name till the lights go out and they'll feed you to the wolves It's hard to say who you'll be when they let those big red curtains close You know this cause you told me so I bet you forgot back in the summertime Dad's bad at cooking though you'd be polite Honey now you got a look that I don't recognize You pulled me aside and you said To know me is to hate me is to hate what I've become Is to watch me as I'm falling from that ladder's last rung Used to feel bad like a secret you can't keep and I'm not the way I was I'm not the way I was Were your feet breathing? Did you leave your skin? Are you tethered in your doubt? If you breathed it into this medicine that you cannot live without Used to came back home a fucking alien and we're stuck here on the ground Call your mom back kid before the high comes down Cause you forgot back in the summertime Dirt road smoking on a Friday night Honey now you got a look that I don't recognize You pulled me aside and you said To know me is to hate me is to hate what I've become Is to watch me as I'm falling from that ladder's last rung Used to feel bad like a secret you can't keep and I'm not the way I was I'm not the way I was But you feel it, you see it, the look in all their eyes Used to breathe it, to be in the good grace that God liked Used to have it in your hands, the one thing you wanted all your life It's all mine It's a hole I can't fill It's a curse I can't break And I gave my soul to it And I can't stop being okay I was younger then I was younger then I was young To know me is to hate me is to hate what I've become Is to watch me as I'm falling from that ladder's last rung Used to feel bad like a secret you can't keep and I'm not the way I was I'm not the way I was But you feel it, you see it, the look in all their eyes Used to breathe it, to be in the good grace that God liked Used to have it in your hands, the one thing you wanted all your life It's all mine To feel it, to see it, the look in all your eyes Used to breathe it, to be in the good grace that God liked Used to have it in your hands, the one thing I wanted all my life It's all mine