And I'm keeping my mouth shut on the weekends I won't hang out with anybody else The pavement, oh, it's begging What's it want from me? And I keep falling back, always looking for relief Hope to be free I've been counting all the minutes And the days haven't counted to me I want to live my life again, but you won't I'll never understand the ways, but you do I didn't know I was afraid, but you did I want to do it again I've been sleeping, waiting for something But to feel nothing at all And avoid the call Sometimes I'm reckless Sometimes misdirected And sometimes when I'm tested I tend to do nothing at all And when I'm alone There's a ghost that keeps talking And I know there's gotta be more I want to live my life again, but you won't I'll never understand the ways, but you do I didn't know I was afraid, but you did I want to do it again I've been numbing my thoughts for hours But I know you won't dare to save me from myself And we've been welting and young for seeds And I can't compete We're too strong to feel what's real I want to live my life again, but you won't I'll never understand the ways, but you do I didn't know I was afraid, but you did I want to do it again Do you want to live forever? Do you want to live forever?