She says on the track, nigga, whoa
Mama getting high up in the kitchen
Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
Nobody was there to even listen
I kept on my problems and kept my feelings hidden, yeah, yeah
And I put the blame on me
I put the blame on me, yeah
I put the blame on me
Only ten years old
I'm already numb, yeah, my heart's getting cold
Saw my mama getting weak, it hurt me to my soul
The only man she loved, how could he do this to his girl?
He put that pistol to her head, I swear he could've shot her dead
Man, that liquor made him evil
I swear that man ain't had no reason
That * just turned into a demon, yeah
Fast forward a couple years, I done turned twelve
Living life one hell to the next hell
I got cousins touching me inappropriately
And don't nobody believe me when I tell
When you learn that your heroes ain't no one to look up to
And the same people hurting you, telling you they love you
Before too long you start believing
That maybe you're the reason, yeah
Mama getting high up in the kitchen
Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
Nobody was there to even listen
I kept on my problems and kept my feelings hidden, yeah, yeah
And I put the blame on me
I put the blame on me, yeah, yeah


me, yeah, I put the blame on me, age 14, left East St. Louis, new drama, but I really ain't
new to it, hear him laughing at lunchtime and I'm the joke, black and white, but too
black for the white folks, I can't do nothing by my face, feeling all out of place over
something I can't control, * is wrong with these people, oh, is there something wrong
with me though, yeah, age 16, life still mean, mama fell hard, needed rescuing, she got a
new man, he told her simply, she could stay with him long as she don't bring me, I guess
she had to make a choice, did what she had to do, chose him over her own kid, I don't
know what'll make her do this, gotta be something I did, oh, mama getting high up in the kitchen,
yeah, daddy was in the kitchen, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, nobody was there to even listen,
I kept on my problems and kept my feelings hidden, yeah, yeah, and I put the blame on
me, I put the blame on me, yeah, I put the blame on me, I was homeless till I turned
18, started living with a man, I was dating, last thing on my mind was graduating, all
about survival and money making.
I was seen to escape my reality Just tryna play the cards, God dealt me
Posted myself singing a song, cause it was on my heart
When it went viral, I was workin' at Walmart I got a new start
Takin' my pain, turnin' it into art Turnin' bad times into hot songs
For the first time, I'm where I belong
Twenty now, makin' moves, makin' money now Rainy day, it's hella sunny now
But every now and then I think about
Momma gettin' high up in the kitchen Daddy wasn't there, he was missin'
Nobody was there to even listen I kept all my problems and kept my feelings hidden
I put the blame on me I put the blame on me
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh I put the blame on me
I put the blame on me