You can see the pain in my lap Demons comin' back from the past Feelin' like I'm bout to relapse Voices in my head All I can hear them say Is everyone wants me dead Bitch, I'm already dead I been dead for years I been takin' medicine again And he mixin' with the vaccin' All my suffering Is really gettin' under my skin Maybe I should try to pray again Try to wash away my sins I know that they not my friends But I'm friends with the drugs again Lost my heart, lost it all So much drama, hold the applause *'s like a soap opera, straight down farce Nightmares on the cell phone, late night cards Lost my heart, lost it all So much drama, hold the applause No soap opera, straight down farce Listen to the nightmares call You can see the pain in my lap Demons comin' back from the past Feelin' like I'm bout to relapse Voices in my head All I can hear them say Is everyone wants me dead Bitch, I'm already dead I been dead for years You can see the pain in my lap Demons comin' back from the past Feelin' like I'm bout to relapse Voices in my head All I can hear them say Is everyone wants me dead Bitch, I'm already dead I been dead for years Have you ever been so alone That nobody's house feels like home? I been runnin' outta drugs and hope I don't even got a plug no more Have you ever been so alone That you don't know what to feel no more? Ain't no reachin' for the pills no more One more and you're on the floor I know that I didn't stand a chance I don't think I'll ever live again I'm only here by popular demand I'm stayin' alive for the fans Lost my heart, lost it all So much drama, hold the applause No soap opera, straight down farce Listen to the nightmares call You can see the pain in my lap Demons comin' back from the past Feelin' like I'm bout to relapse Voices in my head All I can hear them say Is everyone wants me dead Bitch, I'm already dead I been dead for years You can see the pain in my lap Demons comin' back from the past Feelin' like I'm bout to relapse Voices in my head All I can hear them say Is everyone wants me dead Bitch, I'm already dead I been dead for years You can see the pain in my lap Demons comin' back from the past Feelin' like I'm bout to relapse Voices in my head All I can hear them say Is everyone wants me dead Bitch, I'm already dead I been dead for years