Last
summer I was on tour with my abusive ex
He hit me in the face and he stole my soul
That Thanksgiving instead of eating had to call the cops
Cause the father of my sister's kids
is high and threatening us with guns,
guns,
guns
Oh isn't this fun, fun, fun?
Everyone says take a breath
Sometimes it has to get better
Smiling on my head
But what if this changes me forever?
So what if I lose my mind?
What if I like the way it feels when I'm on the other side?
What if the pain just ticked away?
I'm sick of fighting and I'm out
here when I can't even hit the brakes
So what if I lose my mind?
What if I, what if I lose my mind?
New Year,
first off I'd be admired Turn around and my brother's dead
Then my aunt,
then my uncle What the heck,
we're throwing two beloved pets
Up next my first record deal called it a
saving grace Turns out it's a slap in the face
Man, I remember that taste, take a breath
Sometimes it has to get better Smiling on my head
But what if this changes me forever?
So what if I lose my mind?
What if I like the way it feels when I'm on the other side?
What if the pain just ticked away?
I'm sick of fighting and I'm out
here when I can't even hit the brakes
So what if I lose my mind?
What if I, what if I lose my mind?
Now
my sister's in the hospital again Broken collarbone,
another gun to her head
And my best friend confessed that he can't put down the bottle
Put my brother to rest And God, I'm only human
And I can't really cope And sometimes
I think the only way I'll make it out
Is if I let go So what if I lose my mind?
What if I like the way it feels when I'm on the other side?
What if the pain just ticked away?
I'm sick of fighting and I'm out
here when I can't even hit the brakes
So what if I lose my mind?
What if I, what if I lose my mind?
What if I,
what if I lose my mind?
Hold me in your arms in the dark,
you said you'd stay up with me all night
Will you be there?
Will you be there?
Could
you let me know?