I've been trying not to think about it, I can't help it I know you don't wanna hear from me but I am selfish It kills me inside, you can't think on Friday nights, not even pick up the phone It amazes me you move on so easily from someone that you once called home I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel I know you always spell out love so dimly But honestly I don't think you ever had something real Until you met me, drinks in New York City We looked so pretty, think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday Kissed you on our first date, somehow I knew someday This would hurt cause I could never let you go Oh, I spent my whole life missing the part of me, part of me Oh, I spent my whole life hoping your heart is free, heart is free I've been trying not to think of this as something tragic Cause our two paths might cross again, crazier things have happened In the end I realized, lightning strikes just once not twice And shooting stars aren't burning rocks So I spent weeks inside, drowning in these dreams of mine I'm wondering if I'm worth your thoughts I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel I know you always spell out love so dimly But honestly I don't think you ever had something real Until you met me, drinks in New York City We looked so pretty, think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday Kissed you on our first date, somehow I knew someday This would hurt cause I could never let you go Do you not dream of me, cause I have visions in my sleep I can never find my peace though Do you wake up alone, feeling aching in your bones Or are you happy without me now First time that you saw me, you thought that you loved me That bar in the city, I thought you were drunk But I knew deep down that you meant it Wished that I had said it, I was scared to let it Happen but it happened and now I cannot forget it Oh, I'll spend my whole life Missing the part of me, part of me Oh, I'll spend my whole life Hoping your heart is sweet, heart is free Thanks for watching!