You hit me in the dorm room, it was Halloweek and I just flew across the globe Twenty-two hours just to see you, just to barely fit on your twin-size bed And talk about your cool new friend, who I never met, who you dated as soon as I left Carolina autumn, it had been a year since I saw you since we ended it Had a year to grow into the girl you always wanted, now we're holding hands It's not quite friends, but not quite lovers, but we'll just pretend You say it's complicated to make amends, well is that the way that we're headed then? And you couldn't answer me, though you could pull me in while I brush my teeth And let your hands both freely speak, like I wasn't ever gonna leave If you were whatever, no, and I'm supposed to love you from a distance Like it's nothing, like it's instant And you say let's just see where this goes, and I don't know how or why we seem just fine Cause I'm having a grasp that you're somehow not mine anymore It's so cruel how things are only almost like they were before, like they were before Like they were before, like they were before We've walked downtown and it's charming, they're alarmingly disarming Yeah, we've got 48 hours left before I fly back to my death While you stay just fine and feel alive, south of the Mason-Dixon line Where everyone closes shop at nine, where you can somehow finally find What you were desperately looking for, funny how you thought that was gonna be New York With chalkboard walls and slanted floors, oh we could've had that and so much more Ask your new lover what it's like to be given a real fighting chance Before you wish your good riddance, did anything ever really count? Or was that just a two-year practice round? You were all I'd ever know And now I'm feeling stupid, you're forbidden They say that we were something, too bad we were children Ooh, I don't know where to go And I don't know how or why you seem just fine Cause I'm looking at you and God knows you're not fine anymore It's so cruel how things will never be the way they were before, like they were before It's almost just like how it was before, but it's not anymore