When the sun widens it's eyes I no longer know what's going on in here Waking up soon but I wanna sleep Nothing is worse than leaving these sheets Barely awake, still brushing my teeth Running the top, rinse and repeat You were the lady and I was the tramp But showing you off I felt like the champ I was your favorite but fading away Leaving saliva all over my face Movies on Fridays no longer a thing I feel a sting, what didn't I bring? Cause I brought a lot In case you come back I'll be saving your spot Try making a difference and showing you life Stuck at your side, you stuck in a knife Pouring you wine, you pouring my blood Wipe out my life in need of a flight I need a flight, I need an end It's scarier than truth so I'll keep pretending Don't need a reason, I've been defeated Now I'm alone, I'll be looking for Jesus I no longer know what's going on in here Ever seen somebody die? Ever cut your wrists with the bluntest of knives? Hit your friends, started texting goodbyes Ain't nothing left but death in your eyes Sometimes people leave and the lesson's acceptance The older you get, harder it is to get it Some people look for you, some look for an exit Might hurt you, might hate it, but never regret it I don't run from pain, it made me How could I ever hate what it shaped me? Been to hell, how could death ever phase me? Wish them well, even when they all hate me Let me be, take my soul and finally set it free Spread my ashes on the seven seas Let me rest in peace when I'm dead, deceased Where a grave's the only thing that's left for me I need a flight, I need an end It's scarier than truth so I'll keep pretending Don't need a reason, I've been defeated Now I'm alone, I'll be looking for Jesus And I no longer know what's going on Ain't a discography, this a effigy I'm a giant so when I am dying You had better make sure that I'm buried seven feet My reflection, deference to the left of me Cracking under pressure, don't let it get to me You could even break me down chemically Rapping pain, the only thing my chemistry contains I think that this meant for me I think it's meant for me, maybe not meant to be I'm sick and tired of fighting with enemies trying to cry She lied about everything, I wanna die But that's a petty thing, I got a lot more I could be giving Some people hate me, that's a given Wonder what I could've done to act like the sun And put some good use to my energy I think I'm done, done, done, done I wanna run, run, run, run Try to get some, some, some, some And I fucked up my funds, funds, funds, funds I got like two years to be me And I got like three days in a week Now I got like four things that I need And I bought like five bills, I'm asleep Yes, you know I'm tired of shit I thought I'd die as a kid I brought a knife into school and they told me it is what it is Should've been locked in a prison Talk about shitty decisions I had a room, no intentions Told me to work for my passion Nowadays, I've been getting paid Cause the music got me some attention