I don't know what I was thinking,
leaving my child behind
Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind
With all this anger,
guilt and sadness, pull me to harm me forever
I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river
Is this revenge I'm seeking?
Or seeking someone to avenge me?
Stuck in a wrong paradox,
I wanna set myself free
Maybe I should chase and find before they'll try to stop it
It won't be long before I'll become a puppet
It's been so long since I last have
seen my soul lost to this monster,
to the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone,
I've been singing this stupid song so I
could ponder the sanity of your mother
I wish I lived in the present,
with the gift of my past mistakes
But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes
Your sweet little eyes,
your little smile is all I remember
Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper
Justification is killing me,
but killing isn't justified
What happened to my soul?
I'm terrified
It's lingered in my mind and the thought keeps on getting bigger
I'm sorry my sweet baby, I wish I'd been there
It's been so long since I last have
seen my soul lost to this monster,
to the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone,
I've been singing this stupid song so I
could ponder the sanity of your mother