I can't find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help But I pushed all of them away I get the cards they dealt And there's nothing I can change So when I'm by myself I just pray for brighter days Sometimes I sit and I reminisce bout the good times Wish I could get those back I keep on running these races that go in my mind And they go on these tracks I'm not ready to erase all my memories I fight depression and I let it get the best of me Now there's nowhere to run, nowhere to go Look around, there's liquor bottles all on the floor Filling up the space inside my heart and my home Drowning out these thoughts until they leave me alone I can't find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help But I pushed all of them away I get the cards they dealt And there's nothing I can change So when I'm by myself I just pray for brighter days These thoughts are draining all my energy I try to tell them to God They said I'm going insane And then they recommended therapy And I go and talk to a man who's getting paid to explain He started saying that the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain ain't connecting To accomplishments associated with moving on in life And past the things that my heart cannot contain So the happiness won't sustain And he read me my options He said here goes the pill Only take two eat a meal And they don't know how I feel I can't find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help But I pushed all of them away I get the cards they dealt And there's nothing I can change So when I'm by myself I just pray for brighter days Should I drown all these thoughts Or should I leave them to float I've got all of my flaws Living inside of this boat I've been anchored in pain The weight is making me choke It's getting harder to breathe It's pulling right at my throat I've been hoping for change But don't know how to restart They say you ain't a man When you're exposing your heart And they say you insane Until it tears you apart And then they cut you so deep And they can tell by the scars We can only see change When we accept who we are Try to run from the shame And you won't ever get far Don't you bottle the pain And live your life in the dark You're meant to break from those chains And shine as bright as a star Don't you ever tell yourself That your depression is the reason you won't make it Or that happiness is not in your cards With our God you can beat all the odds Keep your faith And you'll never be lost I can't find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help But I pushed off and pulled away I took the cards they dealt And there's nothing I can change So when I'm by myself I just pray for brighter days Thanks for watching!