Give me the beat and the mic, give me the freedom to write, give me the vision to see my demons and beat them at night Give me the bad and the bad, give me a couple of stans, give you a percentage but I'm taking them all in a bag Give me definitive and unlimited, the amount of people loving me and call upon everybody who came before me And tell them to come and check me with whatever they smoking man I'm sick, but I think you know that already You call me evil but how would you know it unless you live it already You think you're better right, cause nobody's seen what you've done in the dark But if I put your life in this light you would crumble and fight to survive or die But bitch I fucking knew that already I ain't special But I specialize in making you feel especially stupid for judging a human While you sit at home and the whole world can't watch what you doing Or follow and hate all your movements I ain't complaining but I know the people who do it are sicker than me And I'm sick of the fights of my losers Yeah, you think you know me cause you double tap on a picture I hate the fact that you judge me as driving me crazy So when it's too deep I say fuck it and drown in some liquor I write these verses in blood, I got chapters for days And my heart is a biblical scripture and I ain't a prophet But I can predict that you'll never catch happiness till you the picture So please continue to laugh If I'm a clown you a circus act But now I rap it's in a surgeon's mask Cause I place every syllable in a deliverable fashion from first to last And cut back with a message that's hidden in melody making them think and ask If I was the one on the table pushing giving birth to rap Maybe it was me Maybe you like all my music but don't really actually love me Maybe you just want a picture Maybe you just want to see me cause you need some money Maybe you think that I'm happy Maybe you think in reality liking my posts is repairing a hole When it's actually shaking and cutting the soul right out of me I think I'm sick I feel a rush of emotion whenever I post up a pic I got a problem I'm in the studio rapping while this girl is sucking my dick She cut a hole in my heart Now I feel it with women who love me cause they think I'm rich And if I be honest I just was a bitch And I care but I really do not give a shit So what's your excuse? What helps you sleep? You leave a negative comment not knowing what you sow you will reap I guess you smile when you post thinking you're hurting me But you see the way the brain works You become what you speak I need peace But y'all can offer that I held my ground I didn't sell my soul I said fuck the fame y'all can take that offer back Fuck yourself you can't take me off the rack All the fame is not worth the heart attack You're insane You're in pain I can tell by what you're saying but My bad I forgot you were fragile I forgot someone who doesn't even know me told you I'm an asshole I forgot that I'm a villain I forgot that I've always spread positivity but you think I didn't I forgot that hatred stems from people who hate their own existence I forgot I'm better off alone I forgot I care for everyone's happiness but forget about my own I forgot I spend every waking second on my phone Come join my circus I'm recruiting I'm taking everyone who passes judgment bitch that's including Everyone who thinks it's so amusing to put me down while I'm pursuing The keyboard warriors that live online behind the screen that's just an illusion Come come come come join my circus You fucking pricks I'll fuck you till you love me then pay you to do some tricks I don't need a doctor I need a bag of nails and bricks To lay down on the floor so if you fail to land a flip You can feel what I felt when you tried to come sink my ship Let me explain you all help me financially gain I spend my money on mental health books and read them just to control all my pain I don't wear clothes but watch this chain and just like you this chain is fake I wear it to distract you from the blatant sadness written on my fucking face What'd you expect? Did you think I wasn't mean to what you were saying and didn't see all of the disrespect? Do you think I'm not human have no feelings Or maybe you think I'm fucking weak and now I'm pleading Maybe you think I'm just too good and that I'm fucking cheating Or maybe Just maybe You're blind and the hate inside your heart clouds your eyes and your mind And your ears when I rhyme even though we all know I'm one of the best of all time Time Or maybe you're just a fucking bitch and I can't Stop comparing me to people who are not in my league Stop saying I don't believe in God just because you can't read Stop making fake profiles so you can spam my feed I'm not alone I know there's millions out there just like me