Back in elementary, I thrived on misery Left me alone, I grew up amongst a dying breed Inside my mind, couldn't find a place to rest Until I got that thug life tatted on my chest Tell me, can you feel me? Am I living in the past? You wanna last? Be the first to blast, remember Cato? No longer witnessing deceits, call on the sirens Seen a murderer in the streets, may I rest in peace? Is there heaven for a G? Remember me? So many homies in the cemeteries, shed so many tears I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many pigs, and shed so many tears Now that I'm struggling in this business, by any means Label me greedy, getting green, but seldom seen And fuck the world, cause I'm cursed, I'm having visions I'm leaving here in a hearse, God, can you feel? Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain Show me some happiness again, I'm going blind I spent my time in a cell, ain't living well I know my destiny is hell, but did I fail? My life is in denial, and when I die Baptized in eternal fire, shed so many tears Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many pigs, and shed so many tears Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer To embrace an early death, now there's nothing left There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest I'm barely standing, about to go to pieces, screaming peace And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it I had my mind full of demons, trying to break free They planted seeds, and they hatched, sparking a flame Inside my brain, like a match, such a dirty game No memories, just a misery Painting a picture of my enemies, killing me in my sleep Will I survive till the morning, and see the sun? Please, Lord, forgive me for my sins, cause here I come Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears God, I lost so many peers, and Lord knows I tried Been a witness to homicides, and drive-bys taking lives Little kids die, wonder why as I walk by Broken hearted as I glance at the chalk line, getting high This ain't the life for me, I wanna change But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game I'm trapped inside a maze, see this tangeray Influence me to getting crazy, disillusioned lately I've been really wanting babies, so I can see a part of me That wasn't always shady, don't trust my lady Cause she's a product of this poison, I'm hearing noises Say she's fucking all my boys, can't take no more I'm falling to the floor, begging for the Lord To let me into heaven's door, shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears