I was a bird with clipped wings, now I'm breaking free
Today's the day that I'm escaping from this aviary
I can't watch you as you aim to please
Cause I've been trying to change you, but when I do it only changes me
So now I'm stuck and don't know how to win
And so I drown in sin
My thoughts clouded from the doubt within
Don't know how to function
Or how to run from
Something that I love, but I need to throw the towel in
See we had the right start, blundered by a bright spark
It felt safe to give you real estate in my heart
Little did I know that you would *** it with a tight grasp
Grip and rip it out of me, like it's a triple bypass
And now I think of all the times that you and I have fought
Tortured by your eyes, lured by your talk
Yeah I saw them other guys, but thought that you and I had more
Went from having butterflies to suicidal thoughts
Cause it hurts me, and it kills me
I'm unworthy, and you're guilt free
I can't help but wonder
How can I be free?
You switched up, and then you spun around
I wanted something unconditional, and you're the one I found
Was more than physical
*, you felt medicinal
But it never felt reciprocal, and that was difficult
It's so typical of me to get attached
To something that's this toxic
* this hip-hop *
Never felt hate when I saw your face
But I hate how you act lately
It may seem crazy to walk away
Right now, but crazy is what you made me
Cause you don't love me
And that just breaks me
You'll never love me like I love you
You don't love me
And that wakes me
Up to my senses that I've come to
And I said
Never felt hate when I saw your face
But I hate how you act lately
It may seem crazy to walk away
Right now, but crazy is what you made me
Cause you don't love me
And that just breaks me
You'll never love me like I love you
You don't love me
And that takes me away from the person that I once knew
It's my beautiful ugly
See I was punished by my sadness
As a young kid
But I ain't hunting for the answers like I once did
I felt the numbness when it landed in my front ribs
Trying to stomach all the * madness that you come with
But now I'm done with
All the sleepless nights
And all the times that I would seek advice
So I'd speak to Christ
Seeking freedom from my vices that I'd use
Just to soothe all the bruises
You would leave me when you'd feed me lies
But you never were an easy prize
Well not for me
But you seemed pretty easy to them sleazy guys
A whole scene of them
You'd leave them with your dreamy eyes
I saw it coming
So don't ask me why
It seems so easy
To be surprised
I had my doubts
And always had my question marks
I thought that you'd respect my heart
Until you left it scarred
I can't invest in love
That never had the depth of ours
You asked for space
So I went up to collect the stars
I would've done it all
Maybe I was dumb
Maybe I liked it under your thumb
And wasn't dumb at all
But I was scared
That I would try to run and fall
And plummet to depression
From obsession with the one I call
My one and only
The only one that knows me
The only one that ever gave me love
When I was lonely
And it's a troubled road
When you're dealing with something
That you don't know
And it's this toxic
* this hip hop * man
Never felt hate when I saw your face
But I hate how you act lately
It may seem crazy to walk away
Right now
But crazy is what you made me
Cause you don't love me
And that just breaks me
You'll never love me like I love you
You don't love me
And that wakes me
Up to my senses that I've come to
And I said
Never felt hate when I saw your face
But I hate how you act lately
It may seem crazy to walk away
Right now
But crazy is what you made me
Cause you don't love me
And that just breaks me
You'll never love me like I love you
You don't love me
And that takes me away
From the person that I once knew
Is my beautiful ugly