The blue light of the train slides over my hands
Turns my skin into something temporary
A map curls open in the back of my phone
But I don't trust the dial that says I am here
Someone holds a broken melody to sing
down a key from a sinner's sailor
I watch my breath draw a soft circle,
I'm lost and disappear
I'm far off and you're safe,
every street starts from A to L
And none of them answer me
I think I'm lost in smaller
ways than before And I've fallen,
I've just wasted all my lines
I've still arrived where I'm supposed to
be But I don't recognize the time I wasted
It's the quiet after the plans not
working And I'm still standing here
A corner store,
flat bills,
that stolen sign Brain light bleeding into the rain
Two people arguing a parked car That was a slur like we practiced it
I used to follow every open direction Every maybe,
every so-called guess
And I walked by streets that look like cancers
Because they feel like somewhere I already lived
Maybe being lost is only scary And you keep pretending you are
Every size itself around what I said
I flood the diction,
I feel permanent Like a clean mind through the noise
But it keeps changing when I
change When my body finally trusts its voice
We're starting to turn in our perfect sign
Just to solve the way the holes filled out
I step off one step early But the black phone unemptied
The first in
Follow the sound of my shoes
Until something feels like home