The land throws a soft circle on the wall
My shadow keeps leaning in and out of it
A half-written message waits on my screen
Cursor blinking like it wants a decision
Outside a late bus exhales at the corner Doors fold and open and shut
I replay the last sentence you sent me
Just to hear how calm your name sounds
I keep practicing silence like it's safer
But it's getting harder to hold
We don't have to talk like we're fixing
something Turn every feeling into a plan
I just want the truth in the room between
us Even if it comes out unprepared
Not out of speech Just a part of me that's tired of translating
What I mean
My reflection Floats in the black of a window
City lights Cutting through my hair
Someone upstairs Laughs into thin walls
Like words still travel easily
somewhere I've had to soften every entrance
Had to change my tone before I start
Tonight I leave the edges in my voice
And let it sound like my heart
actually moves
There's a difference between being careful
And being quiet too long
We don't have to talk like we're defending ourselves
Or choose the cleanest way to be kind I
just want to mess with what I really feel
Not a promise
Just a moment when my voice doesn't string
To survive
I thought I'd see how to arrive Polished,
timed just right,
perfectly placed
But it keeps showing up when I stop rehearsing
When I forget how to brace
No strategy, no soft escape
No clever way to stay in control
Just letting the sound of myself be heard
Without closing the door
We don't have to talk like we're saving the night
Or pretending we're not afraid
I just wanna meet you in the middle of my breath
Before it learns to fade
Not a performance
Just human voices in real time
Try
I
press record
Leave the messaging perfect
And finally let the silence answer
Before I speak